But He has more...

It’s kind of amazing how life turns out… basically, not at all like you expect. For instance, I always pictured myself graduated from college, married and beginning to have children by the time I turned twenty-five. Well, even though that’s where the majority of my friends are this isn‘t where I am. I am twenty-five but the only part of this expectation I have fulfilled is that I graduated from college. I do have to admit that there are times when knowing this makes me slightly… well not the happiest girl in the world. But when I really think about it, I am really happy that my story is a little different.
If it were up to me, I would be in the very same place as all of my friends. I mean, I would have just what I always planned and be happy, right? Honestly, I’m not so sure I would be. I firmly believe that God is in control of my life. I’m so glad that it’s not all up to me. I mean, just recently, I would have taken a job being an assistant to the person who’s job I really wanted. God said “no” and I cried… like a baby. He had something better in mind though. I love the job I have now and I love that He wouldn’t allow me to settle on anything less than what He had planned.
It’s taken me a while to really catch on. He has been saying “no” to all kinds of things, not because He likes my friends better than me, but because He has a different plan and refuses to let me settle for less then the best He has for me. One great example is a when a little over a year and half ago I couldn’t find a job. I had been let go of my first teaching job because of budget cuts that were taking place in my county and all surrounding counties. I thought I was going to have to go back to waiting tables. The only job I could get was at a school three and a half hours away from all of my friends. I was heartbroken… That year turned out to be amazing in so many ways. I made some wonderful new friends and grew closer to a few old friends that moved there because they needed a job too. This would have been enough, but God had more. He showed me that I could thrive and grow off a little independence. Because of this new found reality, I was able to make a big leap of faith and sell just about everything I own and move to Germany for a couple of years. This is where I am now… something I’ve always wanted to do. The adventurous heart I was too scared to reveal God grew and nurtured. Sure, it would be easier to just have the husband and baby now. But… where is the anticipation in that? Where is the romance? I feel scared and excited and more feelings I can’t quite pinpoint. Like one being pursued in love, I feel I am being pursued in life.